Tuesday, December 14, 2010
The Wild Bird
As the wild bird looked out of her cage she realized how tame she had become. "How very calm my cage is", she would say to herself. But over time she would look out the window at the blue sky with billowy clouds floating by or see wild birds flying free through the trees to destinations unknown and wonder if she could survive in the wild.
The bird keeper noticed as her brightness faded and her song became more hushed. He couldn't understand why his lovely bird no longer appeared with bright eyes to greet him. He had done the very best job he knew to take care of a wild bird. He had given her a palatial bird palace; he spent everything he made to give her special delicacies; he listened to her every whim and didn't ruffle her feathers. She had always rewarded him with a special bond of companionship. And now- she was unhappy.
It was an unexpected day when my bird keeper unexpectedly left a hidden door in my cage open. Had he unlatched it intentionally before he woefully left for the day turning to look at me with sad brown eyes before closing his own door? I had no way of knowing that he was giving me the key to fly back into the wild freedom I had just a taste of so long ago. I had no way of knowing how frightening it could be to leave the safety of my beautiful cage and enter the reckless unknown. Would my wild cousins embrace me or shun me? I was soft and groomed from a delicate, caged life. I would need to learn to provide for myself in a dangerous world.
And now she is free. She flies dramatically sometimes gliding on currents far, far above and sometimes resting in a quiet place of her choosing. There are moments when she reflects on the luxuries she left behind, the soothing company of her bird keeper and then her freedom seems a little less sweet. For now, however, she will continue to explore a magnificent planet that welcomes wild birds that flock to destinations far and near.
Monday, November 22, 2010
American Girl
Returning to the USA I am learning what it means to rediscover my own country, appreciate the beauty that is my home territory. Embarking on a road trip from Southeast to Northwest is a sure way to finding home-grown highlights. It also solidified an even more important path I've been developing for myself.
I love contrasts, juxtaposition of old and new, visuals that cause the mind to think harder, question the real picture and accept the poetry of the dichotomy. This has propelled me on to the path of the real American girl. The real American girl knows how to load and accurately fire a .45 but empathizes with human rights focusing on women's interests. She knows how to shoot a compound bow without letting chandelier earrings get in the way of her aim. She isn't scared to be alone or get dirty working on a project outside but knows how to put on Manolo stilettos for dinner. She understands the delicate beauty of feminine sexuality is balanced between a smart, hard fought confidence and investing in high quality lingerie. This bad ass girl will not be trampled but will hold her own in a competition. And if she is beat then she will work that much harder to get better.
While in Montana I was invited to a gourmet dinner with new friends. Each course was presented by our hostess (an incredibly talented chef and baker) with an enthusiasm and vivaciousness that excited everyone. The main course was comprised of white tailed doe she had shot herself and then cooked in a Guinness sauce with a side of butternut squash and a fried sage leaf. The final course was a delicate flour-less chocolate dessert with homemade cardamon ice cream. Following dinner she invited all the guests downstairs where we were all encouraged nee' required to shoot one of the various bows, air pistols or other hand weapons available. The bow was presented to me with the same exuberance which the meal had been shared. The women at this dinner are leading a charge on a rough-hewn path to being real American girls.
I am dusting off the cobwebs of corporate ambition and apathetic attitude towards personal growth to uncover what has lain simmering below. I aspire to follow in the footsteps of those women. Who is with me?
Sunday, October 24, 2010
My Finale
I spent the last couple of days of my adventure in Amsterdam...on a houseboat. Since visiting the city back in September I was enchanted by the charming houseboats lining the canals. When I learned they could be rented I made a silent commitment to myself to come back to one. Due to the French strike against extending retirement age by 2 years, my departure from Spain was delayed by 2 days and thus my time on the houseboat severely limited. When I finally arrived my host showed me my quarters which were adorable. It was set outside of the city in a residential island with other houseboats. The bakery around the corner had amazing croissants, pastries and coffee. After getting settled in I went to dinner at a quiet cafe with candlelight, a glass of wine and three course dinner including oysters three ways. The next day I wandered over to the Waterlooplein Flea Market next to a canal with its hodgepodge of old and new. I investigated the used book tent, elbowing old men perusing Dutch titles while I scoured the stacks for English.
It was cold outside when I returned to my houseboat flat, turned on the radiator and opened a bottle of wine. My last night in Europe I celebrated with cheeses from the tiny Dutch market, olives and other snacks. The sun set while I sat in the wheelhouse reading my book.
I spent 85 days visiting 11 countries. There are important lessons learned while traveling an extended period of time that translate to my life in the future. Patience is imperative. Waiting for trains, delays, mono linguistic disability (my American defect), spontaneous plan changes all require patience. I learned to free myself to savor small details and stop looking at the clock. I figured out it was ok to dance when I have no rhythm because it's FUN. Laughter makes me happy and brightens me from the inside out- no matter how loud it gets. And it is infectious. I visited places and saw things I had always wanted to see. But I became empowered by the journey.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Espana
I arrived in Barcelona for a short visit before I left for Madrid. I instantly fell in love with the city so I knew I would return. With Gaudi's designs seemingly springing out of some whimsical dream onto street lamps, buildings and even the sidewalks it felt as if the city was breathing art. I went for a walk along the beach, sat at a cafe watching jets practice for an air show over the water and realized how significant this moment, this place is. I would come back to Barcelona before leaving Spain to really soak in the city and explore the avenues, alleys and squares. There is a great square called the George Orwell Plaza- actually shaped in a triangle- where my friend Melissa and I ate at a couple cafes, had a beer in a bar where the tables and walls were decorated with street art and sat around people watching. The city is magnificent for its mix of people, poor and rich, art students, old bums hanging around chatting in Catalon and everything in between.
I've already mentioned Madrid, but it was from there I took the day trip to Toledo to explore the walled city. In addition to visiting the mosque, museums and other sites I was on a quest for marsapan. Not ordinary marsapan- this was something special I stumbled on through my limited research. In some of the convents in Toledo the nuns make special dessert treats out of marsapan and sell them directly from the convent as they are not allowed to leave. I had a list of some of the convents and made it my mission to find them. This is a very old tradition that is at risk of dying out unless it is supported so naturally I wanted to do my part. It involved a delicate process of locating the convent, ringing the intercom out front and when answered asking to enter for "dulces" and then finding the secret window inside where they would sell them. Well I did find a convent and it was every bit as exciting and quaint as I imagined. Once inside there was a cabinet with all the sweets available and next to that a window which the nun opened to accept our request. All I can tell you is that was the best marsapan I have ever tasted and I will never look at almonds the same.
Heading south I visited Seville and Granada. There is an entirely different air about Andalucia. The architectural influence of the Moors, the beautiful ceramic tiles, relaxed atmosphere all inspire a traveler to slow down.
For me Spain is art, music, history and so much more- but above all Spain is passion. There is a passion for their culture whether it is Catalunyans fighting for independence from Spain, a flamenco show in Seville, laying on the cafe con leche colored sand at Sitges watching sailboats dance on the water or a siesta so we can eat dinner at 10pm and go dancing until 5am- it's passion.
I'm inspired by Spain- motivated to study life and art, slow down to savor my glass of wine and good conversation, challenge myself to continue growing.
See you soon Spain, you'll always be mi amor.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Serendipity
Friday, October 1, 2010
Italy in 3 Parts
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Why I Love Amsterdam
Monday, September 13, 2010
Brussels- Heavenly Chocolate & Amazing Beer
Friday, September 10, 2010
Making Friends
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Heading South
Outside of Berlin
Berlin- City of Scars
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Living as a German resident
Tivoli Gardens
Friday, August 27, 2010
ABBA, IKEA, Blondes...SWEDEN!!!
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Exploring
Assault to the senses
Sunday, August 22, 2010
My new Sunday ritual
A walk through the forest
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Another homage to eating
Quiet day in Torshavn
Friday, August 20, 2010
Live from the Faroe Islands
Getting out of Iceland-
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Last night in Iceland
I took the bus today back to Seydisfjordur where I will catch my ferry to Faroe Islands tomorrow.
I love this little village with only about 700 inhabitants. It was rainy and cold when I got here but I still wanted to walk around and go for a hike. There are waterfalls everywhere and some steep mountains so I put on the waterproof clothes and headed out. I looked around town a bit and then went to the local art gallery/cafe for some mocha. After getting all warmed up, rained had finally mellowed out, I went in search of a good hike. I found a path off the road going up to a small waterfall. I climbed to the top and sat there on a mossy rock, in the wind and damp, reflecting. The town looking tiny below and the sound of water tumbling next to me was a sweet melody from nature.